Smile lyrics

Tell me, have you felt low?
Tell me, have you felt this low?
I could sleep forever
I don’t wanna wake no, no, no, no
I don’t wanna break
Afraid to fall
I just wanna make it through it all
Still I smile
As I fall apart

I got big dreams that I’m chasin'
Pray that one day I’m gon' make it
I got things bringing me pain
It ain't the picture I’m paintin’
I got hope!
Yea, I ain't religious so show me a God
Show me a sign, never met Jesus
So give me one reason, I’ll change my mind
Im gon' go ghost!
Yo, i been a loner ain't no facade
Fell for the lies, I seen some crazy sh*t
Maybe that's why I stay inside
Fill these note pads while I choke back
These tears mixed with that Cognac
I have missed calls, but my phones cracked
Moms mad I ain't wrote back
But i’m really goin' through it
Truth is I don’t know what I’m doin'
Yea, so I fake it like I know it
I act strong when I’m not strong
Really thinkin' I’m about to blow it, yo
Lemme make it so clear to you
I got better things to do then put my ear to you, yea
And dwell on sh*t from ten years ago
Now I’m here, lights off, in the eerie glow singing...