Tjitji lyrics

[Hook]
[?]

[Verse]
I'm so tired of hiding that I'm dying inside
I'm steady holding back tears in a country that's blind
In a country that's black, but we don't talk about that
I nearly took my own life and turned it into a stat
But you don't wanna, talk about my trauma
Talk about my dad being flora and fauna
Talk about the fact that you benefit from our suffering
Talk about the fact I never lived on my country
I'm disconnected, but you ain't affected
On the day to day so you ain't ever learnt the message
Well this sh*t is desperate
I had a family who loved me with a clean bill of health
Twenty years down under I wanted to kill myself
And I still do, from time to time
It brings me comfort, it calms my mind
When I was young I didn't realise I had a disease
I figured it was normal to want to be at peace
And I found it, when I crossed the street
Close my eyes, cross my fingers
Hope a truck kill me, hope that I could be free
From all this hurt
You only stand with me on top of six feet of dirt
I want what you want I swear we all the same
I don't want to live my life digging my own grave
I don't want to explain, why this sh*t ain't okay
I don't want to see the same cycle happen again
I don't want to hold my children while they shake me in pain
Bring them into the world and tell them that it's okay
Do I lie to they face? What the f*ck do I say?
When the same [?] every pain make me wanna blow my brain
Same pain make my dad an alcoholic
His dad had the same fate this sh*t is hard to stomach
But you watch it, as long as you profit
You've forgotten
We the skeletons that you hanging from your closet
[Hook]
For the moments that I'm not there
Know that you are here, always with me
[?]

[Verse]
My dad called and he gave me his wisdom
He said son, I can see you're dealing with symptoms
I see your pain, I felt the same
If you want real change you gotta play the long game
There's no easy fix, this sh*t is all-consuming
I know you're overwhelmed, I know this sh*t's confusing
I know that you're troubled and don't know what to do
The simple answer is we're all human
So understand why you want this change
If you don't ask why you might be here today
But your motivation fades if you ain't got no stake in it
Seeing this through cause this is gonna take much
Longer than a second, Longer than a minute
We might only lay the groundwork our children finish
You won't fix what you don't understand
Man created this problem, the solution's in your head