​refrain / decide lyrics

[Part I: refrain]

[Verse 1]
Girl, don't refrain
The words that you wanna say
Try to help and you push me away
When I offered out my hand
When I said I was your friend
When you said, "We need to end," that sh*t hurt
Was it all my fault?
Don’t know what I did wrong
I tried to be strong
But my mind's stuck in awe
And I don't know if that will change (Oh)

[Chorus]
I've been fighting
You've been hiding from all your problems
I'm indecisive, way too violent
Surprised I'm not falling
Damned out my pride
I still hate my life
But time still passes by
And I pray I survive

[Verse 2]
I'm insecure, I hate my face, my life is a mess
I try, but all the little things still get to my head
Come and suppose, unfriend, some went ghost
Baby, my eyes were closed, and they won't ever open again
[Chorus]
I've been fighting
You've been hiding from all your problems
I'm indecisive, way too violent
Surprised I'm not falling
Damned out my pride
I still hate my life
But time still passes by
And I pray I survive

[Part II: decide]

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye

[Verse 1]
But one day I wake up
Write a note detailing the faults in my life
And I slowly enter the light
Even though it's not my time
The fate of the awakened and the damned in this f*cked up fairytale
So many times, know I was avail'
Was anything you showed me ever real?

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
[Bridge]
(looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)
(succ*mb to thoughts in my head late at night)
(remember them long night, them nights that I cried)
(thinking of sh*t that I kept deep inside)

[Verse 2]
All of the comments and posts, M.I.A
Whenever I close my eyes in my bed
There's some days I think I'd be better off dead
So someone can finally clean up all my mess
There's things in the past that I wish I could change
And over time, I learned how to numb my pain
I'm writing these songs so people understand
That it's okay if you do not have a plan
What you wan' do with your life
We're all human, we f*ck up sometimes
But we're all trying our best to survive
In this f*cked up cycle we call life

[Chorus]
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
I collide and try to cover up my tracks
But I decide to live in the public eye
[Refrain]
(Looking for comfort, it's love and it's lies)
(Succ*mb to thoughts in my head late at night)
(Remember them long night, them nights that I cried)
(Thinking of sh*t that I kept deep inside)