To My Beloved lyrics

[Verse 1]
Why y’all sleep together when both of you don’t get intimate?
Engaged human contact means safety, though you aren’t into it
How could you be in love when you seem done with it all?
You had so many disagreements, words have clung to the walls
You assert the new medication is killing libido
But it’s exactly the same as the prior, it was placebo
Hate to accept it how the attraction has left
And what’s designed to help you has a counteracting effect
Chronic infidelity, this is the dream you’re selling me
You’ve handily been blindеd by some grief and some jеalousy
How am I supposed to be with you on top of my neck?
To grab each other’s phones, to double down and then triple check
Tried to get through any bickering diametrically opposed
Here where the lights have been flickering, I’m objectively enclosed
In unity that was the past, I miss it a lot but was it that great
I cannot remember that far and though we ain’t last, we’re wiping the slate

[Chorus]
You argued you were sober, why do you have
That guilty expression plastered on your face?
The missed and absent closure, shout on my behalf
What is depressed is faster to replace
Numb my mind then shut the doors
You’ve come to find what you were searching for
Dreaming in a metaphor
Wasn’t I who was affected more?
Apologies to my beloved
That glowing touch you crave and covet
Acquainted with that dial tone
But you don’t wanna die alone
[Verse 2]
Everyday with the mood swings, switching off the cuff
And you were given bout two rings but that ain’t enough
Had gone for years untreated, freezing, praying, wanting a dirt nap
But once you get a taste of royalty, can’t revert back
It’s possible to make the right moves but still lose
As a relationship ends and concludes unfilled rooms
Throughout the spot and now it’s like you both hadn’t met
Anxiety been building for events that ain’t happened yet
Greyed out on the greyhound, my memory’s kinda spotty
After this I want to lay down, your drinking’s getting sloppy
I can’t even have my fun because you’re acting that way
But I’m ignored when I’m concerned so I’ll dig where I shall lay
When is it you have considered me equal? Cause I deserve that respect
Treated unlike other people, you got some nerve to fake and defect
Gone by the skin of my teeth, you’re making this harder than it should be
Tell me what it’s in for me, I’ve never been farther, I wanna leave

[Chorus]
You argued you were sober, why do you have
That guilty expression plastered on your face?
The missed and absent closure, shout on my behalf
What is depressed is faster to replace
Numb my mind then shut the doors
You’ve come to find what you were searching for
Dreaming in a metaphor
Wasn’t I who was affected more?
Apologies to my beloved
That glowing touch you crave and covet
Acquainted with that dial tone
But you don’t wanna die alone