Memoir of Grey lyrics

[Intro]
D-D-D-D-Death to Hollis

[Verse 1]
Two notes I haven't read, and my ego's feeling dead, good
Looping in my head, run away from what I said, nah
Guard dogs and they're brand new
No pit stops, had to make it through
No attention, threepeat, racks, I'm running solo
I-I-I can't move on 'cause the last one was a no-show
It doesn't exist, we're no friends now
Gotta find my way to like it, simmer every minute
Yeah, I can't fake it, I don't have it, must be nice, ain't it?
Long nights, sittin' alone, I can feel the time wasted
I'ma turn around, flip it upside down
Need someone to hold it down
Need something to care about

[Bridge]
And I could lie and say "I'm finе bro"
Erosion, over time it's just gon' fall down
I need to cut off this perspеctive, feeling lost now
Metatron, guard upon me, send me inbound

[Verse 2]
Pull that stick out, I don't keep it
I don't understand why they all flock to the same thing, it don't make sense
You were the f*cking best that I never had
They caught me out in public, gotta run from what I started
Run away from the sign of connection, I know I need it
You can’t tell me that you don’t wanna see what I became
And I don't wanna do a thing
But I'm expecting it slowly and slowly and slowly
[Outro]
Slowly and slowly and slowly
You showed me what it meant to be the one sometimes
In the eye of the light, so I create what I saw
When the moments all connect and you understand what you are
Just a piece of this space, nothing more than or less
Hope the dragon calls us sweetly but it has to meet it's end
Do I really feel like I want this or is it just pretend?
Is it just pretend?