​start of the end lyrics

[Intro]
Is this as bad as before?
Laid out on the floor
How can you claim you wanna know?
With all my messages ignored

[Verse 1]
I don't think you really understand
I told you already, we won't last
Told me where I cut, it's getting bad
But I don't care, you wish I never had

[Verse 2]
f*cked up, got my head in my hands
I won't love, you get it all on-demand
No thoughts, running dry like the sand
Don't leave, you're all I have

[Pre-Chorus]
Step away from the door, I won't let you in
I don't wanna tell you what is happening
Leave me outside in the cold again
Nothing to say
We're at the start of the end

(hiraeth)
[Chorus]
Leave me alone
I don't wanna try but you're arguing
I have anxiety
They're watching me, I'm tryna quit
You don't really know me
Feel like I'm nothing but misery
I'm tryna find a way to block out what you did to me
You can call me useless, least I had a f*cking ounce of trust
Let go of everyone, I'm struggling to give you up
You don't really want me, I had everything and f*cked it up
Is this a sign that I should stop pretending how to love

[Post-Chorus/Outro]
Step away from the door, I won't let you in
I don't wanna tell you what is happening
Leave me outside in the cold again
Nothing to say
We're at the start of the end