Sober State of Mind lyrics

[Verse 1]
Structure, pick up pieces to the puzzle
And I don't have a problem following the right instruction
Sober state of mind, everybody 'round me druggin'
Had to go and grind, everybody 'round me hustlin'
See I wanna shine, but they sh*t on me for nothin'
I was broke, but in front the hoes, sh*t on me in public
Talk about me foul, it was sickening to my stomach
Make me wanna draw down, you know, jump out, go to bustin'
It's gon' take a while, this big b*tch, it hold a hundred
Nick Cannon with percussion, with two sticks, I go to drummin'
A lot of n*ggas I know, f*cked the b*tch that I was lovin'
Utterly rejected, made me feel like I was nothin'
I'm the butt of the Joke, they had me feeling like a sucker
And when I come around, they look at each other and chuckle
Following my heart, I got my mind made up
It's nowhere else from here but run the money way up

[Chorus]
I've been dying inside for a long time now
Crying out loud, but I'm all cried out
Striving to survive, I took the wrong way out
But they'll say I'm the greatest when it all play out
Dying inside, tryna turn the game around
You don't know what I done been through, please don't throw your weight around
All my life it been a struggle, I let everyone down, and felt like giving up, when I was all prayed out
[Verse 2]
Tryna leave the game alone, get along with my life
I'm tryna marry something fresh here, no longer my height
I did some wrongs and some rights, I'm in the Rover all night
Up and focused on types, new three-fifty on ice
May peace be with the fallen soldiers, pouring lean over ice
Pointing fingers all day, different stereotypes
Took a brick and broke it down, sell it straight to an importer
I'm tryna find out what I'm getting, I'm respected, I'm important
I'm connected, giving orders, I can stretch it when I'm chargin'
I just pull up in a foreign, say a lot, I just was walkin'
n*gga, f*ck you, you just talkin', we get stronger, moving sharper
Now I'm smarter, moving cautious, with the tint on the window
Say you love me, hold it down and don't pretend on a n*gga
I protected you for real, that mean I'm really your n*gga
Blessed you with two-fifty, b*tch get back in the building
Get the strap, take twenty flat, you better not rat on a n*gga

[Chorus]
I've been dying inside for a long time now
Crying out loud, but I'm all cried out
Striving to survive, I took the wrong way out
But they'll say I'm the greatest when it all play out
Dying inside, tryna turn the game around
You don't know what I done been through, please don't throw your weight around
All my life it been a struggle, I let everyone down, and felt like giving up, when I was all prayed out