​today was a bad day lyrics

[Verse 1: Tre $avage]
Dealt with so much hatred in my life
Feel so misunderstood and mistreated
How can I live if I don't have any reason?
Ashamed of myself and how I used to live
Have strength, yet so weak, have nothing to give
Searching for hope and guidance
Trapped in agonizing silence
Live in a panic, feeling stranded
Been thinking that my life's mediocre, it's frantic
What I been through is causing me paranoia
Everyone around me acting foolish, have integrity
What happened to me isn't my fault, it has reason
Look inside the mirror, all I see is failure
Just need time to process, deliberate
Life's an unbearable course, can't stay on course
Need an explanation on why mine's going awry
Sometimes, I feel so broken, I want to cry
My pride won't let me, have to put that aside

[Verse 2: Lil Gabe]
Every day feels like a crime
Staying up late, thinking about my life
No wonder why I can't find my way out
Don't know where I'll end up in a few years
People shutting me out
Every day, I'm dealing with self doubt
It's too confusing, conflicting
Every single day, I'm losing sleep, I can't think
I tried smiling when tragedy strikes
Keeping my head up, I'm alright
Actually, I don't know what's wrong with me
Used to see so clearly, now I'm blindsided
All the struggles and torment are everlasting
When will everything be corrected?
I've been struck down by the corruption of life
Now every day is torturous, gruesome
Dealing with problems that I can't ignore
[Verse 3: Energy on e & 𝘔𝘺𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘔𝘪𝘴𝘢]
Nothing's as it seems
Everything's out of place
Don't know how to explain it
My existence is starting to fade away
This is too obscure to handle, it's complex
Don't know how to move forward, what's next?
I'm supposed to live freely without any doubt
𝘛𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦'𝘴 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘐'𝘮 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘥
𝘛𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵
𝘓𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘳𝘢𝘨𝘦, 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘩
𝘔𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥? 𝘏𝘰𝘸? 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴
𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵
Having a bad day
What can I do to resolve this pain?
Tried to kill myself, there's blood on the floor
My life's rigid, raggedy, I'm basically poor
Get so angry at myself, I can't control it
Feel so alone, angry and depressed
How can I get rid of all this stress?
𝘔𝘺 𝘦𝘹𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦?
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦? 𝘐 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳
𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘣 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴
𝘛𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘱𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘢𝘭, 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬
𝘌𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘱 𝘤𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘴𝘩𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘥𝘺𝘴𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘤
𝘏𝘢𝘥 𝘢 𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘣𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵, 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘦𝘶𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘤
[Verse 4: Tre $avage]
Need to be salvaged from living in the present
Focus on my future, past was too degrading
Can't learn from it, uneducating
Scarred from unaccomplished hardships
Self-denial, self-deception, self-deprivation
All that arose was self-manipulation
I finally accept the truth, that life is suffocating
Tried to live, strive, but nothing stays sane
Keep changing, it's never relapsing
We try to move on, but we're never surpassing
There's no cure for psychological pain
That's one thing we'll forever obtain
In the end, is there anything to gain?
In the end, do I still have control? Do I still reign?
Today was a bad day, can't find a clear pathway