Dizzy Paranoia Girl lyrics

[Verse 1]
Expectations high from the start
I’ll just mess it up
“Congratulations, you fell apart”
f*ck, I messed it up!
They tell me I just need to grow up
But I know that they think that I’m not enough
Pirouette your view and you’ll see
There’s no cure for burnt out and naive
(It’s killing me)

Spinning all around, I think I spun out
My fault by default
Thoughts racing up and down, oh what to do now?
Follow protocol
But I hate this, I don’t wanna play ball
I just wanna end this once and for all
Panic all around, but never make a sound
Emotional free fall

[Pre-Chorus]
Stab me with an IV
Tell me that it's to protect me
Tell me I should be ignoring
Everything that makes me bleed
Cynicism inbound
Common sense nowhere to be found
I'll bottle up the thought that
I'd be better off left underground

[Chorus]
It’s not my decision if I make it through the night
And I keep crashing through collisions
Like a dying parasite
Love is an incision
That cuts deeper than a knife
But I’ll still see it in my vision 'till the afterlife

[Post-Chorus]
Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
Laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life’s always been this way

I hate hate hate hate
This arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you’ll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say

[Verse 2]
Say you’ll be my friend to the very end
But I’m in my head, in my head, and I’m seeing red
In a superficial ecosystem, recognize the repetition
Otherwise you’ll end up dead
I’ll underestimate (overcompensate)
Circ*mstantiate (hyperventilate)
Rehabilitate (decontaminate)
Losing at the games I told you I don’t wanna play
Expectations hitting the ground
My fault by default
No one left to catch me when I fall down
No more protocol
Feel it in my cells, my final farewell
An antidote, my stairway to hell
Panic all around but now I’m yelling out
The one thing I recall

[Pre-Chorus]
Stab me with an IV
But I know you won’t protect me
And I can’t keep on ignoring
When you make me wanna bleed
Cynicism inbound
Common sense nowhere to be found
I’ll bottle up the thought that
I'd be better off left underground

[Chorus]
It’s not my decision if I make it through the night
And I keep crashing through collisions
Like a dying parasite
Love is an incision that cuts deeper than a knife
But I’ll still see it in my vision 'till the afterlife
[Post-Chorus]
Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
Laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life’s always been this way
I hate hate hate hate
This arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you’ll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say

[Bridge]
Think I’m at the end of a road traveled far too long
And I keep screaming out the lyrics
Of this idiotic song!
Hate me just because I never wanna play along
But I don’t wanna live a life
Where I live in the wrong

Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
Laugh through every day
No matter what I do, nobody has a clue
Life’s always been this way
I hate hate hate hate
This arbitrary game
No matter what you heard, you’ll never hear the words
Nobody dares to say

[Outro]
I’ll take a final breath so they can all pretend
They loved me yesterday