Jocelyn Flores (Voice Memo) lyrics

[Dialogue: XXXTENTACION]
[?] the mixtape is about a girl that killed herself in- in my hotel room
Yeah, I had just had sex with her right before she killed herself
Like [?] into a house because she was trying to get into a fight with another girl that was there
I didn't know she was drepressed, I didn't know she was off of her meds
She went there and hung herself in the bathroom
Woked up to a phone call basically telling me that she killed herself
So, basically I take from like, real life experiences, like thoughts of suicide, or, just tho- current thoughts that are just [?]
And just basically putting in all for other people to feed on so it's basically a cure to your depression wh- as you're enter... you're basically enter- the.. the, like, from the first track until the end youre basically, you're entering my mind, because this is literally my mind
It's li-literal thoughts or literal emotion, you know what I'm saying?
So it's more or less just like, the con- the concept of the tape in itself, of the album in itself is that you're inside of my mind
It's called 17, 'cause I have a 17 on my head (Right)
[?] this is the one about that girl that killed herself ([?] that's crazy )
Actually I'll play it from here

[Intro: Shiloh Dynasty]
I know you so well, so well
I mean, I can do anything that he can
I've been pretty—

[Bridge: XXXTENTACION & Shiloh Dynasty]
I know you're somewhere, somewhere
I've been trapped in my mind, girl, just holding on
I don't wanna pretend we're something, we're nothing
I've been stuck thinking 'bout her, I can't hold on
(I've been pretty—)
[Verse: XXXTENTACION]
I'm in pain, wanna put ten shots in my brain
I've been trippin' 'bout some things, can't change
Suicidal, same time I'm tame
Picture this, in bed, get a phone call
Girl that you f*cked with killed herself
That was this summer when nobody helped
And ever since then, man, I hate myself
Wanna f*ckin' end it, pessimistic
All wanna see me with no pot to p*ss in
But n*ggas been excited 'bout the grave I'm diggin'
Havin' conversations 'bout my haste decisions
f*ckin' sickenin'; at the same time
Memories surface through the grapevine
'Bout my uncle playin' with a slip knot
Post-traumatic stress got me f*cked up
Been f*cked up since the couple months they had a n*gga locked up

[Chorus: XXXTENTACION]
I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb
I'll be feelin' pain, I'll be feelin' pain just to hold on
And I don't feel the same, I'm so numb

[Outro: Shiloh Dynasty]
I know you so well, I know you well
I mean, I can do any-