My Heart Died the Night She Killed Herself lyrics

[Verse]
Why am I so scared to die?
If I'm already too scared to live
Why am I so scared that one day I will see myself inside my future kids
Why am I not scared of pain?
But too scared to cut open my veins
Why am I scared that you'll only remember the worst when you look at my face
Why is my heart filled with hate?
But my family will always see love
Why am I scared that my uncle and best friends and one day I'll get sick of these drugs
Why am I scared to believe?
In what my own mother just taught me
'Cause if there's a God then he wouldn't let all these children be killed in the streets