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[Intro]
I know there's a lot of people that look at me in a certain way and think of me as some evil ass person that likes to hurt people and do all these f*cked up things and, you know, it hurts me knowing that people have that image of me in their head, but, I remember, I'm the one that did that sh*t to myself.
I'm the one that can't f*cking control myself, I'm the one that makes all these f*ckups, It's no one else's fault but mine, no one else to f*cking blame except me, and I just can't help but f*cking ask myself like "Why would I do this?" When people ask me "Hey, why the f*ck would you do this?" I don't know how to answer that, 'cause I- I literally have no f*cking idea, I don't know why I am the way I am, I don't know why I do the things I do, I can't f*cking answer that anymore, I don't think I even had an answer in the first place, I just f*ck up a lot.
I need help, I need to do something, I don't know, I need to f*cking blow my brains out, something that'll just fix everything for everyone 'cause I'm tired of living the way that I'm living right now, I'm f*cking sick of it, and I'm sick of myself, no one wants to f*cking be around me, no one wants anything to f*cking do with me, I might seem cool on the internet, but once it's real life it's a whole different f*cking story.
So if you wanna be cool with me, if you wanna be my friend, if you wanna like date or be in a relationship with me, just f*cking don't, literally don't, 'cause I will f*ck you over eventually and as much as I would like to not be that kind of person, I guess that's just the f*cking way I was made. I can't help myself, I can't get f*cking therapy, I can't do psychiatry, I can't do any of that sh*t, so
Just don't, don't associate with me, and
I'm sorry