VERSE 01:
You used to say that I'd never be
Nothing without your love and I'd believe
I'm shot in the lungs, I gasp, I can't breathe
You lay here with me, baby, please don't leave
And You'd beg and I'd see, drop to my knees
Then You'd cry and I'd scream, “Baby, why do this to me?”
You throw something at me, then I would flee
Then You'd cry, and I'd die, then you become angry at me
And you would say you hate me
Why do you date me, if all I do is act like a di*k?
And you've had enough of me
I've smothered you, this was never mean't to be
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VERSE 02:
You say I have a beautiful face
But on the inside i'm angry and sad
But you were the last thing I had, I gasp, we can't be
Please baby stay with me, can you hold me please
And I'd beg and you'd scream, I'd drop to my knees
And I'd cry and I'd plead, baby, why can't this be
But I left and I felt like I ruined everything we made
And you had nothing, blamed everything on me
So if I don't wake from this bad dream
We're still together in my head
And i'm still in love with you
'til I woke up to discover the nightmare was dead
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VERSE 03:
I walked out, you almost died, it was like I created a homicide
That I caused cause you were so traumatized
Felt like I was on a long bus ride
I'd rather die than your face not by my side
Can't count how many times I cried, felt like I died
Left your house, didn't call you, then ran and hide
Thought we were like Bonnie and Clyde, no
Our relationship was like dream that died
I made our relationship full of lies
It was because of I, it was like I had a killer inside
Cause if you coulda, took my life you woulda
It's like I pulled your heart right out your chest
And forgot to put back right though, the other side
Of your back and stuck this bolt too, in a
You coulda put up more of a fight, but you tried with your might
At the time, no one could hurt us like I coulda
Talk to you now, what's the likelihood of that?
Bite me b*tch, chew on a nineteen footer
Cause in the morning I finally stood up
Called you, finally told you that you were my first lovea'
Finally showed a sign of life in me for the first time since I left
And when you left me with shattered dreams
And with my life that I coulda, had and we shoulda been
But now, i'm waking up from this nightmare that i'm in
Pulling myself out and getting up and trying all over again
I'm getting up once and forever, f*ck this sh*t
Is there gonna be a pity party, yet
You're gonna have to post-pone it for another chump-ion
Took it to the chin like a champ
So don't expect to lump me in with those crazy men
I'm finished being your punching bag
It was October 33rd today
That's the day of our anniversary
7 months I left on the 23rd of May
It's on my brain like every day
I was gonna call, but never thought of words to say
But this came to me just now
So in some way I still love you, and hey
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