Chorus
Oh, how I, oh how I (deceive)
Oh, how I, oh how I (can't leave)
Verse 1
If I'm the one who broke it off then why am I here?
Decomposing all alone I'm reaching out to my peers
It was I who stopped the pain, and now I've feared for a year
It was me behind the wheel now I'm watching YOU steer?
Devastation in rotation, mind is stuck in the past
Medicating for sensation, jeans are stained from the grass
5 year lessons were learned, in a long lasting class
It’s hard to graduate when you both share a past
And I know you won't admit it, but deep down we both know
That you're enjoying the view, It's revenge I suppose
And it is well deserved, I won't b*tch, I won't moan
I'll take take the highs with the lows, you took the the hot and the colds
How so? I'll never know, but I thank you for that
Thought you wouldn't when you shouldn't, a mistake looking back
I gave you my heart, you wanted my soul
So at times I kept my distance, which had lead to self loathe
Thinking twice I rolled the dice, like so many times before
Guess I did this to myself, I don't blame you at all
I was simply unsure, my intentions were pure
I overthought the situation, so now I'm searching for cures
Indecisive decisions led to head on collisions
No revisions, just division, I hope all is forgiven
So "what is love?" put us in this position
I'd take a bullet for you girl - but I’m not a magician
Chorus
Oh, how I, oh how I (deceive)
Oh, how I, oh how I (can't leave)
V2
They say when you're in love, you won't question it, no
Well my hand's still in the air, although I can't let you go
Can't move onto the next, and so we still text
Pat says its for the best, James Says I miss the sex
I just wanna put my hand down, hand down
Guess its time to make a plan now, move out
Living in the past, but the presents up for sale
The futures on the market and I like what's avail
I was going through the motions, now I miss you to death
Or is it the change that now has me distressed?
Yup! My mind is yawning, woo it finally woke up
Can't believe I stayed sleeping for three sixty five plus
Wings spread, take flight, enough is enough
Yea my feathers were cut, but rest assure they ain't plucked
With me you're always there, Danielle, she told me herself
Said, you made the right the move, time to find someone else
Chorus
Oh, how I, oh how I (deceive)
Oh, how I, oh how I (can't leave)