[Verse]
Focus man, you got this
The clock is tickin’, my palms are drippin’
With blood, sweat, and tears, that’s all that’s in this
Reminisce on lost wishes and charred bridges
Hard to forget cause all the scars and the stitches
People tellin’ me I just need to be optimistic
But they don’t get it, they only hear the bars that I’m spittin’
Some don’t know how it feels to be stabbed in the back
They like my happy raps but this is a lot different
Don’t get me wrong with it, I ain’t sayin’ I’m depressed
I’m a mess but I ain’t even slightly upset
I’m just confused and obsessed with all the things in my head
They said never let it rest until your better is best
But I feel like The Warm Up was the best that I had
Like I ran that whole race just to run outta gas
And everything after that, I just put on a mask
And all of it was left shattered cause it was made of glass
I think I lost somethin’ but I never really had it
If you haven’t, it may be difficult to understand it
It’s like wishin’ for the dreams that you know you’ll never have
Or reachin’ for the stars that you know you’ll never grab
My thoughts have been in the constellations
I’ve been blind cause those thoughts are vacant
But my mind is a house and I’ve been renovatin’
Lately, I’ve been workin’ to eliminate my limitations
I will slay Satan, no sword, the pen is mightier
If I ain’t chicken scratchin’ passion, what am I writin’ for?
Been stressin’ a lot, I’m askin’ for a lighter load
But if I’m lackin’ passion then it’s time to fold
It’s time to go, yeah, I can no longer hesitate
It’s time to show that I won’t be a slave to my mistakes
If God has my soul then I’m headed for a better place
That’s why I bow my head pray each and every day
But wait, what if I don’t get a thousand plays?
Is my music made of blood, it’s all now in vain?
I tend to forget when I drift outta my lane
That my King has a thousand ways He knows how to save
So walk away, but first give me a pen and a paper
I’ll write you a song, come back ten minutes later
You pull a trigger on me, you’ll do me a favor
Cause I don’t live for the now, I live for the later
Timeout again because I doubt again and I drown in sin
I know that these temptations are not my friends
But my mind is a labyrinth and my thoughts can’t get out of it
I look to my heart but the two just keep battlin’
Rap is where I turn when I need to release
It’s my oxygen tank when I just need to breathe
There’s some things I can’t say, yeah, I struggle to speak
But I can make it clear as day if you give me a beat
Could someone possibly explain what’s wrong with me?
Cause it seems like every song I sing is all for me
When did it get so hard to do it all for the King?
And why am I countin’ sheep when I know I’ll never fall asleep?
Honestly, I’ve been runnin’ low on patience
Any negativity, you can just save it
Leave spittin’ fire to Satan, yeah, what happened to that?
I really hate this now cause all I wanna do is brag
But NF said it best, this music is my therapy
Guess that is the one thing that is really clear to me
Step by step, I will give God the best of me
One day I’ll rest in peace and He’ll be waitin’ there for me
Until then, He is here protectin’ me
Perfectin’ me, eternally acceptin’ me, can’t you see?
He is so much greater and better than I could ever be
The name of Jesus Christ is my legacy, woo
Hold up, wait a minute
I’ve already said it, but I’m still gettin’ warmed up
If I’m a bad rapper, I ain’t sad to inform ya
That I do not live for these people’s approval
They change their face every day like the homepage of Google
Listen to my music though, I haven’t lied
I admit some of my lines have been filled with pride
I’ve been arrogant, that’s somethin’ I can’t deny
But God created the oceans so I’m turnin’ the tide
Woodsy Jr