[Verse 1]
I’m writing in the dark. I can’t even see the pen
I don’t know how I should start. But I know how I will end
This is what you wanted isn’t it?
Me to tie my shoes and board the plane indifferent?
Sudden a sheet of sparrows fall from the sky and settle in the trees
Sudden two savage arrows land in my eyes and bring me to my knees
Sudden three hooves of terror dig in my spine and I can’t breathe
Sudden four ravaged parrots vomit lime juice into my spleen
[Chorus]
You took that money from my papi
You told you him you would make a life for all of us
You promised you would never drop me
But now you want me to leave my children home to rust?
It’s not like that, how could you blame me?
I’m trying my best to pave the way for you and the babies
As soon as I get my money right, they’ll be on the plane, too
I’m starting to think the woman I loved just ain’t you
[Verse 2]
What you know about waking up
With the moon still high ‘cause you gotta get that paper up?
Last night I was faded but
Now I feel confined like a worm in a paper cup
I dip my thumb in the vapor rub
I let it numb all the flesh on my chest ‘fore I take a puff
Of the cigarette on my dresser. Ash it on the dress of
The woman next to me. Tell her, “Make me come.”
(Make me come.)
Make me come to terms with my actions
You don’t deserve all the sadness
I casted upon this family when I deserted our bast*rds
I look with verve at the pathways
I blasted open when I boarded the passenger jet
Don’t turn your back on me yet
You looked so perfect with platinum
All on your skirt way-back-then
Won’t you maybe (won’t you maybe), won’t you let us have this again?
[Chorus]
You took that money from my papi
You told you him you would make a life for all of us
You promised you would never drop me
But now you want me to leave my children home to rust?
It’s not like that, how could you blame me?
I’m trying my best to pave the way for you and the babies
As soon as I get my money right, they’ll be on the plane, too
I’m starting to think the woman I loved just ain’t you
[Verse 3]
What you know about sleeping in
sh*t? More than I do with all the money that I’m bringing in
I mail the orders and you breathe them in
Without a word like bird without a beak; well think of this:
I squish the roach on the cabinet
I stick it close to the drawer so the whore that I’m living with
Might come across it on accident
I close the door to my habitat, absorb the contaminants
Of the scorched plastic the crackheads
Are smoking ‘round around a flaming trashcan
On the corner of the avenue
I travel eight blocks in the blistering winter, cap on my head
To the station my train will soon be coming to
Revenue I steal half of it
When I get to work and see my as*h*le boss is absent
I hoped the extra money’d help you bring the family back to me
Now I know you’ll never see past jealousy;
You’ll never see that this is bigger than you
[Outro]
Sudden a sheet of sparrows fall from the sky and settle in the trees
Sudden two savage arrows land in my eyes and bring me to my knees
Sudden three hooves of terror dig in my spine and I can’t breathe
Sudden four ravaged parrots vomit lime juice into my spleen