[Verse 1]
I'm so tired of this pain
I've been losing my brain
Gain a mental flame
More than my inner sane together
Were mental chains until my heart breaks
Hit the throttle to 120 but I forgot I cut the brakes
I can’t slow down here comes a lake
There’s a tree that fell down here last week
That became very weak
After someone took an ax and hit it repeatedly until it collapsed
And that’s an exact representation to how I feel now
But you won’t hear if I drove into this lake and disappeared
Unless the cops found my b-o-d-y
Because you don’t care to ask me if i’m ok, no!
You rather share about how you hate my face
And can’t stand to be around me
And flame in me slowly fades
For eternity, you’re just a girl to me
A giant curse to me, and i’m hoping I bleed eternally
From hitting this lake and die permanently
[Chorus]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focused on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all the way
But I remember everything
[Verse 2]
I hope your doing fine with your new man
You totally forgot about me that was your whole plan
(gasp for air) And as I sit and drown
In this mustang and think about you and how it could've been
It’s a damn shame that I wasted my membrane and my last moments alive
Thinking about you and the pain you caused me
I was a daddy and as I slowly die
My daughter is in the back seat
And she’s calling my name softly
She tries to pull me out of the car
But i’m too heavy
She can’t breathe so she flees to the surface
And sees a civilian and calls for his help
But it's too late
I’m going to hell
I just tried to kill 2 people including myself
The devil will put me on the shelf
As my breath leaves my mouth when I scream for help
I can hear god whisper “oh well…”
I died that day and no one felt
Sad...
[Chorus]
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focused on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all the way
But I remember everything