LOSING COMPOSURE lyrics

[Intro: RudyWade]
Oh-oh (Oh, all of my life)
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh-oh
Oh, ooh-woah, ooh-woah-oh (Oh, all of my life)

[Verse 1: Ethan Ross & RudyWade]
Try to pick it up where I left off
Way too deep in my head, no, I can't talk
Leave you in the rearview, huffin’ up the exhaust
Look tirelessly for solace all in my stress thoughts
Hang on mistakes from my past
Hold 'til the edge escapes from my grasp
Fingerprints it stains on my glass
Contaminated and tainted the things that I have
Saw true love, then I saw it fade
Life is what you make it, I'm looking at what I made
Thinking of what I could have done if you had stayed
Still fighting to find willingness for a change (Yuh, yuh)
Can’t help that I feel so rejеcted
Who am I? What am I? Keep on guessing
This feeling inside of my chеst
Been bringin' out a side of me I never knew I kept in (Yeah, yeah)

[Chorus: RudyWade]
Falling into the dark, you didn't notice (Notice)
I feel we're drifting apart, and I can't get you off my mind
My mind and I was there all along on the inside
Inside, I stare myself in the eyes, no, I'm not fine
And I don't wanna lose composure
But I told you how I felt, I did
You don't know what you just missed ’til it’s gone ('Til it’s gone)
'Til it's gone ('Til it’s gone)
[Verse 2: Ethan Ross & RudyWade]
Every building I'm in, feeling desolate
Crowding rooms, we all lacking togetherness
I just bottled it up and I'll let it sit
Walking all in my truth while I'm stretching it
My own thinking done turned me to pessimist
I can't lie, I don't know where my head has been
Losing grip, my control turned to senselessness
Say I'm wrong, well then show me some evidence
I've been so afraid of the things that I really need most
While I'm running away from my growth
Same old cycle, I swore that I broke
Just keep on turning the wheel with them spokes (Yeah, yeah)
I'm so attached to the old version of myself
But I'm not so proud of what I chose (Yeah, yeah)
I'm so attached to myself loathing
Almost lost all the self I even had to loathe (Yeah, yeah)
I can never allow no complacence
Owe myself an apology that I stayed in
The same place and they hated, I forgave them
But to my reflection I ain't been as gracious
Can't turn back time and I tried to (Time on myself)
Used to feel it never mattered what would I do (I need to do this for help)
All that matters is I stood my ground, put my foot right down
And show them what I survived through
[Chorus: RudyWade]
Falling into the dark, you didn't notice (Notice)
I feel we're drifting apart, and I can't get you off my mind
My mind and I was there all along on the inside
Inside, I stare myself in the eyes, no, I'm not fine
And I don't wanna lose composure
But I told you how I felt, I did
You don't know what you just missed 'til it's gone ('Til it's gone)
'Til it's gone ('Til it's gone)

[Outro: Ethan Ross & RudyWade]
Oh-oh (Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm)
Woah-oh, woah-oh-oh-oh (Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm)
Oh, ooh-woah, ooh-woah-oh (Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm)
(Mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm, mm)