​my thoughts lyrics

[Intro]
(Jewelryboy)

[Verse]
Sometimes I wonder who to trust, 'cause I keep losing friends
Starting to wonder if the word friends really ends with end
I wish I could go back to the past to make amends
But time keeps moving forward fast, so what's the point of squashing beef if its cooked overdone
Sometimes I feel unprotected, I wish I had a gun
But I can't run from my problems, I need to face my fears
Everyday I come back home only to be in tears
I wish I made up with my family for everything I've did
Looking back at myself, I must've felt like sh*t
I did much harm to myself, morе than I did to other people that I'vе met
The devil's looking up to me, I wish I put it all to rest
But now I must suffer the consequences then make it up
Tears running down through my eyes, but the water's mixed with blood
Been through it all, and at this point I never gave a f*ck
Sick in the head for all these years, just pass me the cup
If dreams come true, then how come I dream myself being dead?
Paranoia running all through inside of my head
I'm scared to think what happens next, if life comes by you quick
I'm scared to see what God pulls next, I know his dirty tricks
Why the f*ck should I care?
Why the f*ck do n*ggas treat me like sh*t? They pulling out my hair
Its like they care for you at first but they start not to care
Only the real ones have your back, while all the fake ones write you out your life, like you is not important to them
Absorbent to them
You start to make new friends but time goes by, they ignore you by then
That's why I hate making new friends, you never can't trust no soul
And I know things get worse deep down the rabbit hole
[Chorus]
I can't take it no more
Starting to lose control
I can't take it no more
Starting to lose control

[Outro]
(Jewelryboy)