Imperfect lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah. It's my life. It's mine. And I'll live it

[Verse 1]
There's a pain in my heart that I can barely understand
There's a darkness inside that I can feel with my bare hands
There's a void in my mind, in the atmosphere it suspends
There's a demon that roams and cause chaos so I can't mend
See, I fight with myself and cause a division inside
It's my life that I so despise and speak of not of pride
Feel my pain in a song when I put my soul in a page
We are vain, we're Damned & Tainted every single day
Need no-body to tell us we're crazy cause we feel
Weak or broken and empty that's when you know sh*t gets real
Week or month, it's the same, there's a bottle under my bed
Filled of what I hope is a way to escape feeling sad
Dear God, Holy Father is this a part of your plan?
Is it, the scars of worth when I become a calloused man?
Will it make me grow or make me wiser or more depressed?
See, this piece of my peace is piecing wars that I can't stand

[Verse 2]
I don't know what my faith is, don't know who the hell I am
I won't go to the light when the darkness is all I have
I fall in a pit of my own making when I'm suppressed
And I call myself by names that only leave me more depressed
See, I hate who I am, I hate what I do and myself
I scrape the surface that I surface under when I yelp
I played a deeper part in my own destruction of self
And I may die and come to kill whatever's left of myself
I am only human surely ruined by my past
I had a friend I lost to jealousy, could never get him back
See, he did me wrong and betrayed my confidence as way to kill my confidence
And became the reason I don't trust friends
See, I had a lover I loved with my only soul
She took advantage of the love I had for her and even so
She made me fight a losing battle
And I fought I was in love
And now I left her cause loving her bore a hole into my heart

[Verse 3]
f*ck, this the sh*t that keeps me up like every night
4am and I'm depressingly thinkin' about the time
When I was happy, not acting just like right now to avoid questions
When I didn't fight with who I am and battle with depression
My God, only human, Damned & Tainted and imperfect, I know
I'm so obsessed with people viewing me as perfect, I know
I'm so obsessed with what other people conceive of me
I reach my goals but never feel happy, they take my peace from me
Still, I hold a knife against my demons to the throat
Kill, anybody that loves me for my bare soul
And I think I'm so obsessed with the past and the pain it left
I can't deal with how it feels so I womanize every girl
But still, love is something I know I will always need
But this is no way of life, not how I want to live
So I, bag up my garbage, pack my feelings then I leave
And I'm not really coming back, may all the Damned & Tainted follow me

[Outro]
May they follow me, follow me into the unknown and see what it has in store for us
Cause there has to be more to life than this
There has to be more life