Grief lyrics

And thank god that I don’t have a gun
He knows I’d turn it to my head if I was drunk
Just when everything is great I feel glum
Then the walls close in and everything goes wrong
I tried to cover all my feelings with whatever I could
Handle emotions with handles whatever I can abuse
I broke to pieces, wonder why I felt so blue
And maybe even now I’m not who I used to
f*ck feelings, I keep these people far
Cause every single time I get close I break my heart
Smarter than the rest but now I really don’t wanna be
Got it right in my head, got it wrong audibly
I’m never really busy but I never really sleep
I met the undertow and this life is a beach
Kurt said it best but Nirvana’s out of reach
I think I’d rather burn out than have any more feelings
Wonder why I’m broke
Money can’t replace you, maybe that’s why it’s blown
And drugs take the pain but man they never fill the hole
I’m a stressed out mess, this life is a joke
Saw a kid got hit by a car, it really didn’t bother me
I know it should’ve, but I got jealous honestly
If Imma go out then I hope nobody follows me
Long way down from the top, nobody stopping me

Let me sleep, I am tired of my grief
I would like you
(I would like you to love me)
To love me, to love me
Let me sleep, I am tired of my grief
I would like you
(I just need some sleep)
To love me, to love me