messed it up lyrics

[Intro]
I guess I'll try to put it behind me, then

[mckel]
And I swear—
And I swear that if I f*ck up, I won't come back
If you hate me, then that's it, man
I promise I can be better, man
You won't look at me like awful, man
I promise I'll make it different
I can't change anything, dead on the pavement
Bad days are coming, I feel it, I feel it
I can't do anything, can't make a difference
f*ck it all, f*ck it all, don't wanna feel it
Cover my mouth, I can't scream, I can't hear this
I cannot handle this
I cannot handle this
f*ck up my life, leave me dead on the pavemеnt
Dead on the pavemеnt
It's what I deserve, man
Dead on the pavement
It's what I deserve, man
Dead on the pavement
Dead on the—
Dead on the pavement
[xxcrush]
Promise that this real life
I don't feel alive
But this alright
Promise it'll be okay
Sorry if it so backwards
Wanna be a actor
You could prolly guess my password
Stuck in my head like my favourite song
Like my favourite obsession
I'm pretty sure this could be heaven
I'm so f*cking high that I can see heaven
Heaven, heaven, heaven
I already said these rhymes
Let me practice these lines for the thousandth time

[inssekt]
Drop a pill and forget
Remember what you said, you again
I can't get back that feeling
But I swear, this time, I feel it
I take one more 'n I up the dose
I take two more 'cause I hold, I close
I never wanna let you go (Too much)

Look into my eyes
Telling I'm just fine
Tell I'm not dying
Dying
Dying