Palinopsia lyrics

[Verse 1]
I stared at you so long
Your silhouette's burned on my corneas
I've loved you long enough
My limbs still twitched when you took my head clean off
I was defined by someone I have bad dreams of
At least I knew who I was

[Chorus]
I'll find you when I'm fragile for you
But don't fix me if I'm not broke
No, I don't breathe the way that I was born to
When I catch my breath, I choke

[Verse 2]
That takes me back when I was young
The innocence that you knew nothing of
Thank God I'm not who I once was
But I wish you knew me when I was still as soft
Last month, you called, but no one just calls
Thought something happened
With you, I'm shocked it hadn't

[Chorus]
Find me when I'm fragile for you
But don't fix me if I'm not broke
No, I don't breathe the way that I was born to
When I catch my breath, I choke
I haven't healed how I had hoped
When I catch my breath, I choke
[Spoken: Alan Watts]
Who shut the trap door after them and closed out their soul at once
And become prosaic in the extreme and bland and shallow
What goes wrong when a patient is a visionary
Looking into the heart of the cosmos, into the heart of his fellow beings
Only when he's sick and is blind and constricted and timid
Understanding nothing when he's well
And dependent for the rest of his days perhaps on some drug
To keep his soul safely asleep and suppressed

[Verse 3]
Drove back to my hometown, but I can't find our old house anymore
I've got good sense of direction, I just didn't expect it
Between all the chain stores
I knew it would change, but I wished not in the ways that made it pure
You used to know me so well, I tell you, "I'm still myself
Time's just run its course"

[Outro]
You loved the smell of gas and of the fresh-cut grass when we still had a yard
I take you back to the old days, the ones that made future sh*t so hard
Man, you know where to find me, it's not in my nature to go that far
I'm your open wound, and you never can tell
If it'll heal on its own, or if I'm desperate for help