A Thousand Times lyrics

[Intro]
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times
Look

[Chorus]
This ain't how it 'posed to be, everything don't go as planned
You were 'posed to be my heart but you just bring me pain instead
This sh*t got me over edge, they think I'm crazy in the head
Kill my problems with the weed but I just want the Percs instead
Why I'm never good enough? Stupid must be across my head
It be like Jdot a Playstation, turn the game on and play it
I just wanna give up, my grandma used to say keep praying
But I done lost a lot of brothers so it's hard to hold my head

[Verse]
Run the trap with the reefer, he too fast, I can't beat him
But I'm prepared, I'm never scared when they come out I meet him
Just tryna live for my people but where they at when I need 'em?
And I got n*ggas fighting charges, pray to God that they beat 'em
Hit her once then delete her, can't trust a ho, they ain't keepers
Showed that b*tch a sign of love and she gon' feel like you need her
You ain't my kid, we ain't equal, I'm dropping pills in two liters
I got a son growing up, gotta be breathing to teach him
But they don't see it how I see it, what the f*ck I'm sorry for?
All my life I had to fight, it's like you kicked me to the door
There's some sh*t I wanna know 'cause all I really got is hope
You tryna get me off my [?], gotta be focused, I can't loath
And I put that on the nine, I done cried a thousand times
Phone full of sad songs but I done wrote a thousand rhymes
Get in the booth and spit the truth but all these other rappers lying
I lost Malik, it cut me deep, it's like I died a thousand times
[Bridge]
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
Like I died a thousand times
I done cried a thousand times

[Chorus]
This ain't how it 'posed to be, everything don't go as planned
You were 'posed to be my heart but you just bring me pain instead
This sh*t got me over edge, they think I'm crazy in the head
Kill my problems with the weed but I just want the Percs instead
Why I'm never good enough? Stupid must be across my head
It be like Jdot a Playstation, turn the game on and play it
I just wanna give up, my grandma used to say keep praying
But I done lost a lot of brothers so it's hard to hold my head

[Outro]
Cried a thousand times
Thought I was on your mind
And I put that on the nine
I done cried a thousand times