Gone lyrics

[Intro]
Yeah...
And this is it, man...
I thought I at least owed you all an explanation
So here it is...
Yuh...

[Verse]
People asking why I'm leaving
Told them I don't really need it
I did everything I came to do
I'm proud of my achievements
Every song I ever wrote
I wore my heart out on my sleeve
I didn't need an instrumental I would write them to the beat
All them nights I couldn't sleep and all them days I didn't eat
When I recorded Free Riko I was crying in my seat
I had to turn the camera off
I didn't want no one to see
Wiping tears up off my cheeks praying that they let him free
I didn't leave the house for weeks, nobody asking if I'm sweet
People judging who i am from what they see up on the screen
I got a couple million views but that ain't bring me any peace
I was living in a nightmare and I couldn't even scream
I was praying every night, my head down and on my knees
Asking God to let me dream and give me answers that I seek
Fans telling me they love my songs, they got them on repeat
Saying all my lyrics dope but do they know what they all mean
I miss my older brother so much I'm wishing he didn't leave
10 years have gone by and I'm still dealing with the grief
Nothing ever comes for free
Not even happiness is cheap
A broken heart, the price to pay and I'm still picking up the pieces
So I hope you understand the reasons why i have to leave
Even writing this all down now I can hardly breath
I'm having flashbacks of Rivs face
Every night I sleep staring at his older brother with a look of disbelief
Cause what I did to him is worse than what my brothers did to me
Riv I'm sorry I'm not the man you needed me to be
I could kill myself today but I may never rest in peace
Baby telling me its okay, just get back on my feet
But I can't give her what she needs, she needs a king cause shes a queen
I don't deserve for her to wait, and I won't blame her if she leaves
Just know I love you when we first my heart it skipped a beat
And I still see you in my dreams every night when I'm asleep
A family is what you want and I want to give you what you need
But I believe I'm not that man that you want our family to see
I know our daughters will be beautiful
The same as their mum
But if we have boys I don't ever want them growing up like me
So I'm gone
Yeah, Uh
So I'm gone...