Best Intentions lyrics

[Verse 1]
Every now and then I wanna feel the escape
When the depression sets in and my spirit breaks
And I go out hunting demons and they make me beg
Got me p*ssing in the wind, down my own damn leg
If God wrote a book 'bout everything that he's done
I'd go searching for my name, now wouldn't everyone?
And you can tell me point-blank that I'm a narcissist
I'm just needing confirmation that I exist

[Chorus 1]
Please don't read my mind
I'm so scared of what you'll find
I haven't left it all behind
So much hate 'cause of all the hurt
No idea what I'm really worth
I'm holding out for peace and air time

[Verse 2]
You have to understand that my intentions are good
And everything I do I do for love
I got two little souls and I love them, man
That I'm trying to lead to the promised land
We take big ol' trips out to the country side
Got a big old house where we reside
And there's a big old boy with a big old gun
Stays up all night in case the weirdos come
[Chorus 2]
I had a job but I resigned
Then I had a change of mind
I will again if I'm inclined
Another moan from a millionaire
I don't know why I'm telling you 'cause you don't care
I'm holding out for peace and air time

[Outro]
I'm a little bit older but not wiser still
I was smoking marijuana, taking sleeping pills
But I get up in the morning, take the kids to school
And my other indiscretions are so miniscule
And I really pray to God it stays that way
'Cause deep inside I think I'm still hurting
When you take your chances and you ride your luck
All you're really saying is 'I could f*ck this up'
You have to understand that my intentions are good
And everything I do I do for love
I made a ton of mistakes, it's either fight or flight
But every now and then
I kinda get it right
(He kinda gets it right)
I kinda get it right
(He kinda gets it right)