Pharmacology lyrics

Verse 1 [0:14]
Closer and closer to darkness
Never felt so goddamn heartless
Can't we stop this?
Can't we just stop this...?
NO
Now explore my mind
Let's start with f*cking Dexedrine
A bloody methamphetamine for ADD
Bringing out the f*cking manic part of me
Just filling me up with Adderall
Spinning me out all about to brawl
Living past the side effects and constant withdrawal
This is your fate
Just taking it to control your mind
A motherf*cking zombie walking blind
Looking skinnier than a f*cking Olsen Twin
Now let the motherf*cking madness begin
Well they took away my dad so еarly from life
Then I was forced off thе meds, now I’m filled with spite
Could give a f*ck about anything tonight
It all started with the alcohol I never knew I would build a wall
Tried to escape until I stalled, fell off and then I was about to crawl
Into the darkness , becoming more heartless spun around indeed
Getting so high, sooo f*cking highhhh yet it was never enough for me
To the point where'd I f*cking drop and bleed, and even f*cking seize
Chorus [1:05]
Now everyday, I give away a limited shame
A mother f*cking greaser with his reign to blame
And I could beat the living sh*t out of your friends, family and in the end your kids
Until they’re p*ssing and puking blood out from their broken ribs
My addictions and emotions overwhelm me
But a hit from this bong will f*cking chill me
I don't know who I am
Innocent or Guilty
But the pharmacology is a part of my biology

Closer and closer to darkness
Never felt so goddamn heartless
Can't we stop this?
Can't we just stop this...?
NO

Verse 2 [1:58]
So I look back, with a backpack
Full of memories
And extascy
And my brain will bleed
When it see's what its like to really face
The worst of me
And I beg you, please
Just f*cking let me free
So I can finally be
The person I grew up to be
Unsheathe this knife
Let go of your spite
Live through the night
And we'll see what's right
When your tight rhyme
Ooks like a fright time
And the bright light makes you go blind
Inside
Now you f*cking know how I felt this time
When I gave everything just for this rhyme
Will I live, Will I die, Will I cry inside?
Will I fly this time?
Chorus [2:26]
Now everyday, I give away a limited shame
A mother f*cking greaser with his reign to blame
And I could beat the living sh*t out of your friends, family and in the end your kids
Until they’re p*ssing and puking blood out from their broken ribs
My addictions and emotions overwhelm me
But a hit from this bong will f*cking chill me
I don't know who I am
Innocent or Guilty
But the pharmacology is a part of my biology

Closer and closer to darkness
Never felt so goddamn heartless
Can't we stop this?
Can't we just stop this...?
NO

Verse 3 [3:17]
Now the last verse
Let us rehearse
And get the hearse ready
For the f*cking dead
Let the reverb
Just take you and break
And we shake from the bass
And shift out of place
No mistakes
Just us and everything we face
Come to our final reasting place
So innate
We quake
So irrate we break
From this f*cked up state
So we don't know where we're going today
All I know is now there is no shame
Or Pain
Not even insane
How do I reach this plain
Of extistence