[Hook by Blake Rose]
I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vein, before all the pain, comes back again
[Verse 1]
They say pain is weakness leaving the body
I'm weak and I can't hide this shame
I'm tired of being called names, ridiculed
It's the same damn thing constantly
And I just can't take it
I'm a mess and I can feel my heart breaking more and more again
I'm so f*cking stressed, I snap punch a wall with my fist
Tears fall down my face, I feel like my life is a waste
I'm an emotional wreck, I can feel depression grabbing me by the neck
Why is life gotta be so complex
I might not make it, but I'm good at faking it
Just gotta take it day by day
But while those sky's are gray
I feel nothing but emptiness inside of me
I'm falling apart, total broken heart
Because of the way she treated me
Abused me, used me, confused me
And made up sh*t
Now I feel like I can't go on living
[Hook by Blake Rose]
I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vein, before all the pain, comes back again
[Verse 2]
Shot in the heart, shedding tears in the dark
Fears surrounding, a f*cking mess, yeah falling apart
That's the feelings I had on a Gosh Damn daily
Praying constantly for someone to come and save me
Cutting my wrist, having feelings as if I didn't even exist
Suicide attempts, feeling weaker everytime I would go through this
It's a pattern that never ends, and
I think I'm becoming worse by the second
Picked on and teased, constantly f*cking bullied utill I wept
Nothing's wrong with me emotionally it's all in my head, is what I said
Until I tried to hang myself in my f*cking closet
sh*t I need help!
I keep reaching out, but nobody seems to reach back and lend a helping hand to help me get back up again
f*ck you all! You did this to me!
My blood is in your hands
Cause f*ck life I'm out
I can't stand the way y'all treat me
So I'm becoming history slowly until
I can't breathe
[Hook by Blake Rose]
I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vein, before all the pain, comes back again
[Verse 3]
A month goes on, it's the same song and dance
My heart is tired of the bullsh*t romance
I feel as if I can't ever love again
After they way she f*cking used me
And lied to all her friends
Now I can't show my face at school ever again
All because you thought my feelings were to be played with like an instrument
f*ck this sh*t, I'm getting up out of bed and gonna fight this f*cked up depression
Me and my mental state are in a boxing match
Back and forth, like a tug of war, we go
But I ain't even giving up though
I'm gonna get through this, if it kills me yo
I don't give a f*ck what you say
Cause I feel stronger each and every day
That passes, I ain't gonna let you say
A gosh damn thing to ruin my day
A couple months pass
I feel more healthy
I can see the sun shining
Down on me, I feel alive, finally
And most importantly
I feel incredible b*tch cause I am the ace
[Hook by Blake Rose]
I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vein, before all the pain, comes back again