Crucifixion lyrics

I think I'd rather be a vagabond
Than to continue to be held bonds
That contain my true soul
I think I'd rather step out the normal contortions before us
In order to finally obtain my goal
I'd rather die then be alive
In this life
Filled with misery and lies
And pain will just never subside
Why am I living a lie
I'm still unable to cry
Feeling like a prophet of false hope
Nail me up and crucify
Yea
I been feeling kinda evily lately
I been feeling kinda dead I let attention bait me
I cling to everybody just to feel alive faintly
Planning the next method of suicide on the daily
I'm only scared that I'm not afraid
I'm not this human that I'm choosing to portray
I'm just waiting for the day
Where my ashes will be sitting where I lay
Every time I see your face I see the f*ckin spittin image of me
That's why I hate you
You played the game better than me
I'm just working for the cheddar the green
Don't wanna be seen as weak
When the time comes you better be mean
You better swing your f*ckin fist like you mean it
You better shoot first
'Cause otherwise these n*ggas stomp you out
And leave you in the dirt
Just for the hell it
Now tell me what's the madness in that
We supposed to be supporting
All the youth who dreams are soaring
But instead we take they sauce and stab em right in the back
That's wack
But in fact
Everybody say they can rap
Though only few can stand out from the pack
Like Roccstar
n*gga, Seraph
Animo
Thebladefather
Durty30, BVO
Man the rest of all these n*ggas is jokes
I'm running circles in my sleep around em
I ain't got no time for these folk
I might seem c*cky but that's kind of in the job description
Through all my pain and all my sorrow still persue the mission
And the it's the mission that's in every humans field of vision
The same ambition when they teach it teach it to they children
Now what's the goal
To be honest I don't know
I'm just tryna get up out my neighborhood
I'm deep inside a hole
Everywhere I turn I see homeless person
And in these past couple years conditions start to worsen
I saw the tears in her eyes when she was begging me to feed her f*ckin baby
And I had the food to spare
I gave it to her
I don't really mind to f*ckin share
What bothered me is ain't nobody else seemed to care
They all just riding round living luxury
While people like me and her
Can't get a couple bucks to eat
But I digress
I can't worry bout the stress
I'mma kill myself from all the f*ckin stress
Word up