VERSE 01:
I thought I had it all figured out, I admit
I thought I was smart enough to stick it out with her
But I never was the type to cure two things at once
I found myself cryin on my knees at night
That should have been the day that I could of cured my stuff
And just leave, how come I couldn't see this sh*t myself
Call me a freak, nobody was as ugly as me
I couldn't see the way that people watched me fall
Help me, no one was there when I was stabbed and left to stale
I couldn't even see my reflection when it showed itself
I couldn't even fit the shoes that my dad showed me now
I can't pass f*ckin Algebra, I don't need that to be my hell
I'm not about to lose my life to this f*ckin course
I need to calm down, try and get my feet on solid ground, so for now
HOOK:
VERSE 02:
Bury my face into wrestling, cause I don't want to look
At nothin, the worlds too much, I've tried all I could
If I could inhale some of Mary I would
And end my life for good, just say goodbye to all for good
I probably should, these problems are piling all at once
Cause everything that bothers me, I keep it bothered up
I think I'm losing touch, but I won't f*ckin give up
I gotta get up, Thank God, I got that baby girl
I'm a f*ckin brother, I know she ain't mine
But it's like she my daughter, but I leave her in the mud
My hands are full of blood cause I can't f*ckin touch
All I know is I don't want to follow in the footsteps
Of them kids, cause I hate them so bad
The worst fear that I have is growing up to be like there f*ckin ass
Man, if you only understood why I am the way that I am
What do I say to my mom when I tell em
HOOK:
VERSE 03:
I feel the need to quit, but sh*t, I feel like this is it
For me to experience this I feel so f*ckin sick
I am not a game, this sh*t is real this sh*t is sick
Please listen to your ass, conceal your f*ckin spit
f*ck the violence, I'm done, I'm never lookin back
When I quit, Ima move on with the life that I should of had
I love my family, but no one ever gives me time
On the fact that I try to be positive for the life I have
I never asked that I'd be born with a man that wasn't my dad
What the fack, this is more than I coulda asked
Everywhere I go, someone is always on my ass
What about math, how come I wasn't ever good at that?
It's like I was a boy in a bubble, who never could of adapt
I'm trapped, I wish mom would of loved my f*ckin dad
I pray to god that I will be able to live with my life intact
Imagine going from being poor to seeing
Everything that you always dreamed of when you was growing up
I'm f*ckin crazy, cause all I live for is my baby sister
But what about the life that I live so now I live alienated so I'm sayin
HOOK: