Pain lyrics

I finally moved out my momma house
Got a happy home
Only thing f*cked up, Daddy gone (Gone forever man)
Listen up this is real sh*t (Real sh*t)
It's f*cked up when u got nobody to share it with (f*cked up)
Give my last so my grandma can see me now (See me now)
Smilin tellin everybody bout her grandbaby (her grandbaby)
T-Lady hold on all I got is you (Mama)
It's f*cked up what I done put me and my mama through
What's happenin Ivory I know you lookin down watchin me
Everyday I got yo kids fresh from head to feet (All of em)
Wish I can put u in the bentley with the brown [? ]
I wish we never would've went out to that club
On the road to riches mane lost a flock of n*ggas
[? ] a whole block of n*ggas
n*ggas bite the hand that feed em I done seen it all
Jus got a call... Slo dead... Not my f*ckin dawg

I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many years

I lost my daddy in a heartbeat
Real talk eyes turnin right in front me
Ever since I saw that sh*t... it hunt me
Pray for me cause I shake in my f*ckin sleep
Wish I could[? ] shoot the 50 n*gga
I shoulda put him under my wing and I miss him n*gga
I told [? ] way back stop ridin with ya pack
He ain't listen
And now my n*gga right back in penitentury he don't listen
I lost Ivory and it f*cked me up
My whole life changed
n*gga put me up in beast mode
My heart cold
And as the years role
I wish that he could have everything I got
And a lil mo'
Yo kids love me n*gga
My kids and yo kids call each other sister and brothers
You forever my lil hustler
Just saw yo gangsta at the car lot n*gga and a tear dropped n*gga
I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many years

Seem like it was yesterday
The mo money I get this sh*t hurt
I thought that would take the stress away
To see u smilin with yo chain countin money n*gga
When Trina pulled you on stage you was stuntin n*gga
But through it all mane you kno how we rock n*gga
From the yo to the block to the hospital
Never again would I have another big dawg
But ya mama and kids I got em all but I

I never thought this pain last this many years
I... I never thought this pain last this many years
Still in tears
I... I never thought this pain last this many yea