[Hook: John Mayer]
No matter how far you have try to find it
Hope and never give up in searching
Someone special is the key message
[Verse 1: Angela Brown]
See, what I want so much should never hurt this bad
I have fantasies of falling in love, that's what the virgin says
I only wanted someone to hold, love is unconditional so he says
God, talk to me now, am I the one your dreaming of
Love is powerful and you played with my heart
You cut me deep, down to my gut when I shut you out
And I was too proud to admit love was but a kind dream
How do I deal with the one who hurt me overly
We keep breaking up purposely, I rather be alone than to see you scream
How does one identify with the one does not love you, wants to hurt you
Love hurt so bad I wanted to kill him or myself, my life I would sacrifice
Mixed up emotions of hating you on my mind
I admit it all now loving you was the problem
When we first met, I thought you were cool
You were the control freak, you mistaken me for a fool
Sorry I was never who you thought I would be
You thought I was never good enough for you
You want too much of me, too much of my time
I could never measure up to what you had in mind
Oh, I guess, goes figure it had to come to this
[Hook: John Mayer]
No matter how far you have try to find it
Hope and never give up in searching
Someone special is the key message
[Verse 2: Angela Brown]
See, what I want so much should never hurt this bad
I have fantasies of falling in love, that's what the virgin says
I only wanted someone to hold, love is unconditional so he says
God, talk to me now, this is an emergency
With your abusive words, don’t hold your hand to me
Now I must focus on more positive things, when your love took the best of me
When I thought I would do anything to have a man in my life
And in this relationship, you left me in doubt
You told me I was too young to think for myself
I could not have friends, you rather me quit
I could not be me, my voice carries
I was too ugly, too immature, and too poor, I was insecure
And my physical appearance demanded your attention
But you never had the time to work things out
You were deep into yourself, it took time to figure things out
Having our child meant the world to me
But I never met you sensually
Sex was an act of anatomy
You played with my heart emotionally
"You f*cking them girls, disrespecting me”
I cheated behind you dishonestly
You don't see how our love was supposed to be?
And I never let a n*gga get that close to me
And you aren’t cracked up to what you were supposed to be
You always gone, messing things up how they supposed to be
And this the first time I spilled my soul out for you to see
[Hook: John Mayer]
No matter how far you have try to find it
Hope and never give up in searching
Someone special is the key message
[Verse 3: Angela Brown]
See, what I want so much should never hurt this bad
I have fantasies of falling in love, that's what the virgin says
I only wanted someone to hold, love is unconditional so he says
God, talk to me now, am I the one your dreaming of
Love is powerful and you played with my heart
You cut me deep, down to my gut when I shut you out
And I was too proud to admit love was but a kind dream
How do I deal with the one who hurt me overly
[Hook: John Mayer]
No matter how far you have try to find it
Hope and never give up in searching
Someone special is the key message
[Verse 4: Angela Brown]
You must have had yourself in mind
When you told me ‘No’ all the time
I could not breathe without you near
Sometimes I held my breath when I broke down in tears
Your jealous rage wars plays with my mind
I could not live life without you in mind
You were protecting me from the lash of my dreams
My life was at risk, when you questioned me
Why would I live placing my life in harm?
I could have died, I could have risked it all
You were controlling me because you cared
You rather show your love than to see me dead
I resented you when you questioned my ability to lead
When you only wanted me to follow my dreams
Because of you watching out for me
I’m in a better place it now seems
[Hook: John Mayer]
No matter how far you have try to find it
Hope and never give up in searching
Someone special is the key message
[Verse 5: Angela Brown]
I’m lost without you in my life
With no kids and no man
I can’t live without
I will never give up searching inside
For that special man to come back in my life