It's hard to see myself through this mirror crack
I believe in hell, I've been there and back
Once you hear the facts about my near collapse
It'll be plain to see why I placed my dreams on the clearance rack
Disappearing act, no magician assistant
We're told we can live to a limit but that sh*t is a gimmick
It's a point that you missed, I'm dismissed as a cynic
I find it funny time is money and you want me to give you a minute
I ain't got that time to spend unless you defined as friend
Then I'd take your place in the lion's den and meet my violent end
Treat this rhyme as a final gem that I can send
Never bail, you only fail if you fail to rise again
I prevail through, trials and tribulations
Miles of situations a child shouldn't be placed in
Mitigation of style, denial of information
You know these Masons are vile cuz they defile our liberation
I've compiled some inspiration but it seems I dream in vain
I need the pain so please refrain from believing that we bleed the same
I seem insane cuz they don't believe my claims that I've seen the rain
And it wasn't evil when the seasons changed
For measly gains I'll leap through flames and walk with monsters
Hitting corporate sponsors, with foreign objects cuz they more than pompous
There's a war going on inside my morbid conscious
A moral conflict best embrace yourself, like an orthodontist
Get more obnoxious when I start to feel some e-motions
Surround the east coast in a cloud of weed smoke now we floating
Ain't a man I wouldn't brawl, a wall I wouldn't breach open
I'd bleed oceans, if it's for sowing the seeds so they keep growing
I Have a unique notion the truth should be spoken
But what's on screen, rolls our mind through the gutter like Wii bowling
Give 'em the heave hoe it's these hoe's we steam rolling
Like you gonna see me blow, they mean the CEO they deep-throating
Leave it alone, negativity is death's servant
I keep my eye on the prize not the lies that I let blur it
I expect deterrence they can censor it
I just stay grounded and let the positive energy flow like direct current
Chest burning the fire starts inside the heart
Feel like I'm aboard a giant ark the last survivor of a dying art
Whether you a major chart climber, or a minor spark
There's an all seeing spy we're trying to pry apart from our private parts
Life is hard you see the scars beneath the bars
Reach for stars at all costs but when we fall short we bleed and starve
I'm back to lead the charge capture this dream of ours
Ironically I found an outlet, but it's free of charge
Best believe it's hard don't complain chief
This black cloud becomes rain and makes the sun stay brief
I got this vivid recollection that's an untamed beast
Cuz it makes me realize memory lane is a one way street
So I buckle up, cuz I know it's gonna be a wild ride
Chugging cups of cyanide trying to kill the lies that lie inside
Having a diatribe with my dying tribe
Won't make it out of this life alive, got body bags under my tired eyes
Silent cries, constant consternation, got me pacing
Like have I been copulating with God or Satan
And even if I lack the concentration
I never stop connecting dots like a map of the constellations
I know I'm preaching to the congregation
But this sh*t just disrupts my deepest contemplations
My relation to my occupation is doctor/patient
Pulled my insides out to get a buzz, no Operation
Postulating like how could we feel redeemed
If this slate has dirt and grime that turpentine wouldn't really clean
I heard the lies they burglarize steal and scheme
But I let that bullsh*t I internalize, fertilize my field of dreams