​i been blocking out my mind just to heal myself lyrics

[Intro]
B-B-Boyfifty

[Chorus]
I know you hate this, I don't f*cking like it either
My brain can't stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I can't f*cking kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself

[Verse]
She gon' thank me when I kick the bucket
Obsessive thinking, my mind crazy, but I can't say f*ck it
Cause I got you and these people who gon' listen to me
This sh*t my therapy, don't take it as a lecture homie
I f*cking lay in bed just thinking and sh*t
I think I'd probably be happy if I didn't think about sh*t
But I can't help it my mind racing like a track meet
I try to sleep then get depressed like the f*ck happеned to me?
I’m wastin' my time, I opеned my eyes
Can’t rely on these b*tches, I learned that the hard way
Coming back to my senses, but I've been through hell
I’m a lion in a cell, but it's kinda hard to tell
Now I don't mean to yell, but sometimes I need to get this feeling out of my chest
I love my homies, shout out my brothers one time
I hope they not lonely, cause I'm barely alive
[Chorus]
I know you hate this, I don't f*cking like it either
My brain can't stay still, I'm struggling to chill myself
I really hate me, cause I can't f*cking kill myself
I been blocking out my mind just to heal myself