WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! lyrics

[Chorus]
Why do I?!
Why do I do this to myself?!
Why do I?!
Why do I do this to myself?!
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Let it go?
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Four, three, two, one

[Verse]
I shouldn't do it, I do it, I will be ruined
I'm screwin' myself, I'm clueless, I blew it, I shouldn't follow
My mind, 'cause it's racin' and pacin'
Devices I'm chasin', adjacent to desolation, we all know
I'm f*cked, gambled thousands of bucks
Down on my luck, in the dirt, now I'm stuck
Hold up, give me my turn, to play with fire, get burned
Had this outcome before, I guess I didn't learn, no
I shouldn't smoke it, it's useless, but if I see it, I do it
A f*ckin' loser, a doofus, I saw my future, it's stupid
Look vegetated and gruesome, it's conducive to bruises
A veggie plate 'cause it's fruitless, but here we go again
Spent a wonder to snag it and I just opened the baggy
Yo, this is gonna be magic, I get my grip then I grab it
I twist it, lick it and wrap it, I'm not addicted, it's habit
Flick the Bick and it's flashin'
And then I get a call from daycare, my daughter's pukin', need daddy
I'm paranoid and I shower, I'll be there in an hour
I hear the devil, he chortle, f*ck, I hope I look normal
Feel like I fell through a portal, got in my chevy and sped
I think I need some meds, is my wife mad we met?
How my eyes? Are they red? How my future is? Dead?
Can't get out of my head, can I be you instead?
Lay awake in my bed, look in the mirror and said
[Chorus]
Why do I?!
Why do I do this to myself?!
Why do I?!
Why do I do this to myself?!
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Let it go?
Why can't I?!
Give it up? Four, three, two, one

[Outro]
I can't let
No one but me
Down this road
Down this rabbit hole
I can't let
I can't bring you
I do
Do-doody-do